Thoughts from a soggy mind - best served Cold

ahh, at last it’s over! The dreaded trial has come and gone. So yeah..i sumhow managed to survive thru 5 papers n 7 days of torture. BUT as for my performance in those exams, let’s juz say it wasnt great by my standards =(

Physics : Ok i gues…except that i din hv any time to check booklets 2 & 3, which is quite tragic when i consider my "Careless Mistake Syndrome" (more on that later)  Rating : 7/10

ESL : Wasnt too happy wif my handling of extended response..brain was too slow and couldnt come up wif variety of words (read: synonyms). But letter was okay i guess. Easily d best paper of my trials.  Rating : 8/10

Bio : AH…wad d hell r those essay questions asking about? 4 out of 5 subpoints i’m not confident of scoring..hell that’s a 1st for me. But d rest was fine n i did do my best..  Rating : 6.5 / 10

Chem : The low point of my trial. I mean, where in d world did those equations come from? And a host of other issues as well.. Like when hydrogen peroxide decomposes and itz concentration stays constant after awhile, izit bcos thr’s excess of reactants or itz an equilibrium? Anybody? Arghh… Rating : 5/10

Maths : After chem i was pretty much brain dead anyway. Mentally exhausted and all so i din reali expect to do well. And thus far i discovered that i’ve lost 3 marks ady, all due to Careless Mistake Syndrome. Oh well, wif a paralysed brain and everything i cant reali expect d best can i? Juz brace for d backlash nex week lo. Rating : 6/10

And after all dust had settled, we went to pyramid for a movie just to relax..Wanted to go somewhere further but nvm la…louis u c la i so sayang u =p watched Little Man, it was darn funny (wif lotsa R-rated jokes n all) but not nearly as great as White Chicks le…on d plus side, v had practically d whole theatre to ourselves? Less than 20 ppl watched. Sad…

Well, overall my week was like..duno how to describe. It was juz filled wif studying n studying n …yeah, studying. Like Miss Kwa said, "you’ll just eat, shit, study and sleep" so i guess that was true in a way. BUT now that trials are over i Kenot relax cuz nex tues is my turn for physics presentation (Fibre Optics in Communication)! Arggh…dun care, gona enjoy myself 2nite n 2moro b4 i start looking up wad exactly i typed for my report. Forgot everything ady.

So yeah..gona go back uncle’s hse dis weekend, get to watch Man Utd =) apart from that, c my relatives and everyone, juz have a nice long rest b4 i figure out how to increase my mental stamina so that i can actuali last one whole week during d finals.. Cos this time round, i ran out of steam after chem. Sad.

Kies. I guess that’s all for now. Take care everyone, enjoy your well-deserved rest.

Hurm…today’s a Friday. Nex friday’s the start of our trials (Physics, 7am). arggh…Itz gettin nearer and nearer innit? And the worst thing is u normally feel like u dun know which subject u shud study 1st n which next, whether u shud tackle those pesky questions or try 2swallow the indigestible books n stacks of notes. What then?

Well, educational experts wil tel u 2 prepare study timetables, make mind maps, write motivational slogans on your wall, n wateva things they can think off to fill their 120-page (or 1200?) RM78-per volume books. In any case, if i had the time n energy 2read such books i’d certainly have time 2completely revise ALL my subjects, no? What’s d purpose of reading them then…

Haha. But due to unexplainable circumstances, i have somehow pushed myself right on schedule. Physics is on friday n i’m oni at chapter 9 now. 7 to go, yes, but i still have four days excluding the weekend. Plus my mock tests so far are generating positive results so i guess itz better to worry less and just focus on cutting down on d num of careless mistakes…

Oh yes..the corroboree! Like a madcap i’ve bin rushin around last thurs n friday trying to sort out who’s fillin up our table etc. Then came d extra requirement that v hv2 sort out sitting side-by-side wif another table to accomodate ‘people’, hehe. The irony was, my table was like, filled by friday afternoon? And sum1 suddenly pulled out on that nite itself!No, that’s NOT the worst thing that happened…so he pulled out via sms but the sms din reach us. Or should i say me? Stupid maxis! Anyway, the implication was on this monday, i had to suddenly go in2 overdrive 2find another replacement all within 5 hours. Great. But of course, sum1 else was willing to join us so it was solved quickly. Lol. But perhaps i should strangle con man just for fun…d extra requirement cost me lots of shit by the look of things.

Ah well. U cant hv everything in life can u? In anycase, trials n finals are gettin closer so that shud b d main priority. I guess all the hard work would pay off come december.

Oh yeah..i nearly forgot. I passed my jpa psychology test so i dun hv2 go for counselling..lol =) another thing: i guess i shud start wearing specs after i play squash even if i’m sweatin like mad..it kinda sux when u cant c clearly n therefore dun even know if ur looking at d correct person! I mean, squinting at people’s kinda rude rite? The irony is of course the fact that i can c a small squash ball flying around n not people’s facial features..

Haha. I guess that’s all. All the best for trial people.

Okays, so i got back from hols in one piece. I didnt know how i did it but i did =) erm..sunday nite started quite eventfully (this is kinda overlapping wif d last post in terms of time frame but nvm). Just back from hols and a tiring journey between teluk intan-ipoh-tronoh-teluk intan-subang and suddenly at 10.30pm we were told that bio practical design’s due the NEXT day, NOT a week later! Oh shit…and i was d group leader, that’s wad made it worse. But of course i managed to extricate myself from the mess pretty nicely…an hour of intense typing and it was done..*phew*. Got it back today : 13/14. Not bad lo hor? Lols!

Monday: Uneventful, pretty tired, brain still sluggish but i did post up d pics of my hols. Nuff said.

Tuesday : Got back my physics CT3 paper. Ahaha…so i lost one mark for forgetting to minus d overlapping transitions. Mr Sam even marked that question twice. So i ended up wif 49/50 which was quite good ady, better not complain! Also got my revision back on track..ish..

Wednesday : Merdeka eve! Who in the right frame of mind wud study? We watched fireworks and then all assembled in B1708 Master bedroom (my room) and held an all-male meeting @ guy talk =p contents of meeting? Secret of cuz! But it was well after 1am that we finally slept..

Thursday : Celebrated Merdeka Day by eating books d whole day. Now ain’t I a patriotic JPA scholar? I’m making sure i dun fail my exams n waste taxpayers’ hardearned money ma =)

Friday : Thatz today…Slept and study. Now chatting n typin dis post.

Okies…more important stuff now. DI and Maths CT4 nex week, ESL creative writing, followed by mock tests of all sorts and forms and then trials. Now wad else can one wish for? Lol. Hurm, am i like doin enuf preparation? Dis kinda things do get on ur nerves at times n affect ur mental (in)stability so itz time for a reality check: I know full well that i can go at a more punishing pace than that i’m currently undergoing. Which means my best form is not here yet but dis is a month-long marathon so i dun hope to peak too soon. Itz building up nicely though =) juz hope that all goes well then!

Now to my frens who are taking stpm trial nex week! I know u guys probably wont read dis post but all d same, i reali reali hope u all will do extremely well ya? All the best!

Oh ya..i heard dis song on radio lasweek n it was so nice i cudnt take it out of my head! Managed to find d lyrics which was very meaningful n sad in a way…

What Hurts The Most
by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Haha…that’s all for dis week i guess. Euro qualifiers so no Man Utd games to follow…Will hv2 wait til nex saturday then. In d meantime, all the best to everyone, no matter wad assessment ur taking!