Thoughts from a soggy mind - best served Cold

Yes! A four day break can do wonders i hope…itz not everyweek that v hv such a long weekend rite? Pity our lecturers who had to go 4professional training but…all i care for d moment is tv, sleep, n doin nothing! *hehe*

Seriously though…i reckon i reali nid sum rest juz 2recharge those worn out batteries b4 midyear..didnt do well enuf in ct2 but i guess that means less pressure 2perform 2perfection in finals so..not everythg bad actuali =)

Plenty of stuff had been goin thru my mind lately. Sumtimes i wonder y i care so muc bout other ppl’s probs? Mayb itz bcos d stuff dat they do (or didnt) are those i wish i can do myself? but nv can, due to circumstances..so…nid 2b less caring (or busybody, depending on how u look at it) n jz focus 4midyear…

Anywae, itz Chelsea-Manu 2mr! Well, d title seems all but gone bt i guess d most important thg is dat itz a fight til d end n i reali, reali hope d devils wil win 2mr? Moral victory, gatecrash d party, wateva u call it…altho ultimately there wont b any trophies, i reali reali reali believe that itz d journey, d effort n d sensation of bein in it dat matters at d end of d day..Juz like those poor amateur guys who know they’l nv taste glory of any kind and yet slog on and on purely because they love it? That’s d spirit!

Granted, at times it Is a lil frustrating n saddening but dat’s life so i guess i’l care more bout d process thn d outcome. Starting wif midyear of cuz.. nx tues gona start my engines at last n hope it’l last til midyear without breaking down.

Of cuz during hols there’s a BTN thingy but dun care so much 1st, gona make myself scarce there anyway. And, i do wonder sumtimes…will causing us lose 5days of our badly needed hols 2attend a patriotism camp actuali make us more patriotic overnite? Oh well, that’s up to d powers that be to decide..i guess itz NOT up to us the participants to decide rite? After all, v’re there 2 LISTEN while they TALK.

Plus d greatly anticipated psychology test- i wonder wad will happen if i actuali tick answers which, when analysed, reveal a hidden tendency 2murder ppl at nite? or maybe i actuali hv a hidden desire 2 mutate rats so i wont make a gd ethical biotechnologist? what IS in an answer anyway? Juz 1test 2determine whether v’re psychologically fit? and oh,is there such a thg as a psychologically healthy JPA scholar?

Nvm nvm…those worries will oni occur at d fastest 2weeks from now =) so..btr enjoy d net 4 2nite, cut my hair (will a new hairstyle change my luck i wonder?) n scream myself hoarse celebrating chelsea 0 manu 5 2mr (hehehe…), do esl report on sunday n jz chill out on monday…thn itz a long long slog beginning tues..

Happy weekend!B happy n take care!

      It’s been quite sum time since i blogged in a bad mood (a few weeks, i guess?). Well..it’s 2 days b4 maths ct n itz phy a day after, but itz not THAt dat’s pulling me down.Yea, bin making stupid n careless mistakes in my maths practise but i guess itz all bcuz of dis:

      I wonder y sum ppl hv it all n yet they just dun realize it? Brains, health, success, everything. And yet they nvr seem satisfied bout it? Maybe saying that they’re ungrateful is too strong a description but i do wonder why they dun realize that not everyone is in such a blissful state as them…some of us hv2 b content wif much less ..So, to u ppl out there who nvr seem satisfied wif wad u hv, wake up! There ARE ppl who’l nvr even get a sniff of wad u fret over not gettin quick enuf!

    Then again, there’s another type of ppl who Know they’re in a blissful situation and how lucky they actually are, n yet they come up wif dis reason n that not to appreciate it? I dun know which is worse, not counting ur blessings or counting but not appreciating them? Some blessings in ur life come but once, abit like d Halley Comet (once every 76 years i think)…so 2 actually hv them n not grab hold of them tightly while u still hv them is realli stupid in my opinion. Without bein pessimistic, v dun even knw if v’l b alive 2mr. So wads all d feet draggin gonna bring u anywae…? 

         So..to my 2 friends (one for each situation, both guys- r guys more stupid?), i do hope dat u ppl wil realize how lucky u all r? And 2anyone reading dis post, for that matter. At times stepping out of ur own shell n looking in2 ur own life from the outside will reveal many many blessings u’ve missed or brushed aside. Don’t wait till 2mr when it may b too late…nor shud u push too hard too (am i being contradictory here?) In short, b content wif wad u hv n value them =)

        Me? I’m quite content wif wad i hv…i noe my blessings, tho, as any selfish human being, i do wish i hv abit more =P Oh well, no point bein jealous of wad other ppl hv i guess..it’l oni bring loads of misery so i won’t b jealous of their good fortune. It’s seeing them not appreciating their good fortune n bliss that hurts. Esp when they’re my friends, n they’re in danger of losing the very blessings i’d love to have for myself…

Finished bio n chem ct ady! Chem was 2day…(1st ques was killer!) Neways, talk bout bio 1st…yest’s ppr. I finished it in like,wad? 20 mins? haha…but i doubt i’l get fullmarks..nvm…thts an incurable disease of mine..dun care so much la so long i did my best, which i think i did, considering da typhoon of a flu i had on tues, sumore din studi da whole afternoon (tried to sleep off da flu *ahem*). Tues was also 1st time i ponteng eap =p but den ms jacqueline say nvm (thanks!).

Back to bio…well, apart from da chloroplast thingy and da anaerobic ques i guess everything went smoothly. Today’s chem was diff story tho..pity those who didnt finish le. Luckily i did but d shit part was, sumhow i labelled ester group as carboxyll group! Mati la…Miss Kwa’s gona killme when she gives bac d ppr =’( but i guess it did go btr thn i feared it 2b so…muz b satisfied la, considering da kind of preparation i had n d kind of stuff i was busy wif beforehand *hehe*

So..itz maths n physics up nex! Can do anot? Dun know yet, muz studi 1st! Hope maths gona b easy, if nt munin wil roast me…

So..yeahs. To all those taking ielts tis sat, all the best k? Too bad idp’s closed 2mr so i cant take my results til monday! In any case miss jacq’s gona b dissappointed so what’s d rush? hehehe.

Busy week ahead…but this time nex week? i’l b enjoying my long weekend! =)

*Listening to Tears and Rain*… by coincidence it rained very happily just now…and i mean reali heavy! anywae…sum moron who obviously doesn’t know stealing is wrong took my umbrela! Don’t they know itz gona seriously inconvenience d victim?Duh…some ppl r reali nuts!

Anywae…for some reasons best known to myself, i actuali headed bac 2 college amidst d heavy rain for an ultimately futile exercise *hehex* so…had 2buy a new umbrela (rm12 ! considering my almost bankrupt status, tht’s so not gd!), sumore battle thru d wind n rain, thn BACK again to salmon steak where i lost my umbrela n d rest of my frens were hapily enjoying their drinks n shelter… haha..stupidity reigns supreme yet again!

That said, it was FUN getting wet! maybe sumtimes d veri thing v detest and curse (in this case, d heavy rain) cud b fun if v oni let go of our inhibitions and live for the moment? I mean..dun care bout d spoiled shoes and possible flu etc, n juz enjoy d cooling rain =) maybe sumtimes… fear reali spoils the fun tht v may enjoy if oni v let go?

Nex week is gona b damn busy.. DI on 17-18, bio ct on 19th, chem ct on 20th, eap newsletter dummy (due lasweek actuali) on 17, and a host of other small but nevertheless important stuff… mati laa…still, itz a gd test of our sanity! plus, if it rains like it did today for everyday nex week, i’m gona b so hapy!

O yea..juz realized there’s a typo error…i wanted to type rain ‘heavily’ but ended up typin ‘happily’…still… i guess i was happy so d error was warranted

+ Good luck for your DI, issue analysis, common tests and what nots! Take care! +

*Whew* Finished my chem SRT at last =) 3 days ahead of deadline so i guess i shud b happy wif myself, hehehe. anywae…d past 2 days were mixed… friday was quite fine, i think i did quite well in ielts speaking except part 3 (tell me, how do u ans "how important is it for adults to keep their culture heritage" and "what are the disadvantages of holding culture heritage exhibitions overseas"? - no time given to think, oni spontaneous answer, mind you). crapped a lot of my answers (FYI, joyce [that's the examiner's name], i did NOT plant a papaya tree =p but i did help my mum pull out weeds…). Friday afternoon was pure fun -rain, lightning and all =)

Saturday morn - ielts test! Listening went wel enuf, except tht i din expect thm 2use Indian accent! Reading was ok, but da Yes/No/Not given was irritating as usual. Writing was d killer! Task 1 was smooth sailing (luckily) but Task 2..duno la, maybe itz just not my topic. Space travel…lol…if they had given me da aus jury ques in d practice book, i’d b laughing aloud…but they didnt =( Din noe wat points 2write, and cudnt elaborate. Sumore writing was shittier thn usual (i’m sori miss jacqueline, u’l b dissappointed wif my writing band score). Still…what’s done is done, all in all i did my best so…yeah. btr focus on the storm ahead!

One last thg…PTM on saturday morn as well! It certainly sux 2b criticized…but then..perhaps the reality is sumtimes u hv to go against ur principles just 2get tht extra 2marks? duh…i dun reali think grovelling and submitting 2ppl’s fancies is a great idea, but then JPA wont b happy if i squander an A20 opportunity? sigh…gota think this over.

anywae… we now have a whole week free cuz DI has been postponed to 17-18 april! So that means v hv da ‘honour’ of taking assessments four days in a row… DI on 17 & 18, chem write-up on 17th as well, bio ct on 19th and chem ct on 20th…great !

So…muz take d upcoming rather "free" week to studi, studi and studi… Did i miss out something? Yeah, and studi…. Then, it’l b a matter of keeping a cool head (wif a functioning brain) for all those assessments…

*Chem practical test tomoro! I hope i wont break any apparatus or seperate the wrong organic/aq layer!*

** Good luck to everyone who’s havin issue analysis, DI, common tests and what-nots!**

I’m in deep shit i guess…bio outline n annotated sources in bout 30+ hours from now..and i’m onli printing them! did annotation for bout 4 of them ady…so itz 4down and 12 to go i guess (if that’s not shitty enough, my print quota’s down to 27). Sometimes i wonder…just how much pressure can a person take? but then does this even COUNT as pressure? oh well - i guess it can b so. working under deadlines and procrastinating at the same time has been my hallmark all this while so i figure it’s not too bad..there’s still a whole day 2moro rite? haha…gota b optimistic..tht’s wat a Friend taught me so i hv2 follow quality advice =)

That’s all bout d shit..now bout shut: perhaps my pressure n subsequent depression is caused by this and not da bio HA. Can’t say much here but i stil wana vent my feelings a lil… at times i wish ppl won’t b such hypocrites? You may think tht the other party doesn’t know ur intentions or wats reali behind the scenes - but do pause a moment and think carefully before u proceed wif ur dishonesty.

Maybe its best u shut up before ur found out or exposed. That way it’l b btr for everyone.

*Nex week’s gona b a busy week! Anywae..good luck for your common test, issue analysis and whatever else! Stay happy and good luck!*

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