Yes, but….sigh…
I did say i would never blog again (in the short term). And while 3.5 weeks does seem a bit short, let me tell you tht wen life is hell, even 10s of it can make u feel like life isn’t, well, worth living. Anyway…what’s past is past. Though they’re da most important issues in my heart, i wont write them here. I dun think i should.
Ques: so what drove me to blog again so soon?
Ans : A day which started with a headache, got better and better towards noon then rolled downhill (or was it down a cliff?) and ended with heartache….
Sigh…i wonder if stupidity can ever be cured? or in this case, carelessness? Surely, something is wrong with you when you actually make a mistake that’s uncharacteristic of u? Add the fact that it’s something valuable not only in terms of money but also other much more important stuff, and you start to wonder what all this means. Am I experiencing some sort of "post-recovery syndrome"? Where my mind goes haywire and all organisation goes out of the window? I hope this is just a blip and it’ll nvr happen again…it’s a real damper on your self confidence….
But the thing which wrecked my day the most was reading something which perhaps i shouldnt hv in the first place. Let’s just say curiosity isn’t the best policy when it comes 2this kinda thgs. Da title got me attracted and before i knew what happened, i was reading the very kind of ironies tht was (and still are, but i prefer to think it’s to a lesser extent) afflicting my life. I dun blame da writer though…good points raised. It’s just that i thought i pretty much fulfilled 60% of what was said and described…the onli difference was my situation is different from da one described.
All in all i blame my big mistake 2day. If that didnt happen, i wouldnt hv gone online 2nite and logged on 2friendster, thn i wouldn’t hv such itchy fingers 2read such stuff, then i wouldnt b so down 2nite. But then again i wouldnt write this blog too…
Oh well. I guess a goodnite’s sleep can cure or at least reduce some of da adverse effects. Gotta pick up soon for more quizzes coming on thurs..hvent even reali studied n here i am typing away!
But reali! If i hv da luxury 2blame someone for all tht’s happened 2day? I’ll blame tmnet and taylor’s cow-brain ICT staff!! stupid internet connection caused me 2spend over an hour searching 4 one simple definition, in the end had to rush for chem and caused all this trouble…
What a day..not to mention a thunderstorm had to happen while everyone’s asleep n i had to handle open windows all over da apartment alone. But then again i’d rather face a few more thunderstorms n mini floods in the hall than those two mentioned above…especially da 2nd one…WHY must i b so curious?
Anyway..i realise i’m babbling and talking in circles. That’s NOT good writing! Imagine if i write this way in my ESL tests or any of da project reports - I’l b dead! I’m seriously hvin some mental problems here..hope they’ll b gone by the time i wakeup and tis is just one of those rare days. Goodnite.
