Of Viruses and Tanks…
Starting a new academic year with a bug is definitely not the best experience. What more when it’s such an important year. Even the thought gives me shivers..exams in 10months time, and i hardly have a clue how i’m goin 2take them.
The odd thing is, it’s already a week into the new year. And knowing full well what an important year this is, somehow i’m running on empty. Physical resources? Zero (I can blame the bug of course). Mental resources? Nil.I seem to have misplaced my brain somewhere. And the worst thing is there’s no motivation! Maybe it’s due to the fact that most of my lecturers are from last year…there doesn’t seem 2b much need 2prove myself all over again, is there?
It’s not fun to be running on an empty tank. With your body aching and mind spinning around, nothing else hardly matters except running straight to bed and burying yourself in sweet blissful sleep…provided there aren’t nightmares of course. People say motivation can push us beyond boundaries and help us achieve great things. Without it, will I fail?
I wonder just how far can a person go without motivation? Without the will to push on, can the mind and body work to their limits? Perhaps go on mechanically and without emotion, with the exams at the end of the year as the sole goal? Or perhaps i should add personal glory, pride and records to my aims. Still, success once achieved only shows itself for what it is: emptiness. How far indeed can one go on an empty tank….
Well, i’m about to find out.
